part of my story

hi,

Well, to start off this show is doing a lot of good for me every time I get to catch it on. I told my parents about myself being bi and transgendered about 2 years ago. After that I ended up being called trash and garbage by my father. My mother ended up saying she disowned me. After this they would not talk to me unless they had to treated me as if I wasn't even part of the family really just someone who lived in the house. Soon after this I started doing fairly bad in college. It was due to their lack of interest and how they acted toward me. Eventually, around thanksgiving one year in 06 I believe it was. We had a huge fight I ended up threatening to kill myself. I finally quit school after that year it was too much for me. Not to mention I'm starting my story off at when I came out not what happened all through school (elementary, jr high, high school). Well after them treating me like shit I ended up making a decision to move to Florida I had a friend take me in down there. The day I left their house my mother decided to make the decision to call my current "girlfriend's" parents at the time. Basically they ruined "her" life too. I refer to her as this because by the end of our relationship "she" turned out to be just a gay guy. Anyway I ended up leaving as soon as possible for Florida lived there for a month and my now ex's parents decided after a month to bring me up to NY which I agreed. to say the least by the time the relationship ended I had slept out on the street for a few days at one point. I had been raped sometime after Christmas in my sleep. And I was left alone and sick in the apartment on Christmas day. I decided sometime after that a in 07 January-ish that I was leaving but I had no place to go I had lost everything. I instead was forced to come back to my parents. I'm lucky my parents don't know about the rape otherwise they would use it against me. They of course have let me come back but I am forced to live out as a male. I'm finally starting to wear things like female jeans, bra that can be hidden, panties stuff no one would notice. I'm slowly rebuilding I'm even trying not to cry while typing this. I've spent the last 2 weeks as full time female around the house because no one is home. I have never felt happier than when I am able to do this. I cant take a lot of this anymore. The only reason I see to be alive is the one person who has been there for me for such a long time since I met her and I cant even go visit her. It kills me not to be able to hug the person that has been here for me in person and its not likely I'll make it to see her.

Anyway I just want to thank you for this program it gives me hope that I may make it one day. I can't even find a job now because of prejudices. They can make up any reason in the world not to hire you or call you back. I'm doing everything I can to get out of here soon we should be moving to TN where I can hopefully find a job get the therapy I need and get away from all the troubles.

Thank you very much for this uplifting show.

Sashia Rose Sanford