Twice Given Up!

My name is Marta Rosalia Anderson Reyes, I was given up for adoption from birth in Santa Maria, CA. Born Sept. 4th, 1964, since age 7 I knew I was special. Yes, I found out I was an adoptee. 12 yrs ago I posed as a lawyer at the Santa Barbara Superior Court house and retained my 16 page Adoption court paperwork! I was desperate!! So my bio mom is Paula Duran de la Roche, bio dad is Jesus Gonzalez, and on my court papers from the S.B. Welfare Dept. it states that "in lieu to "Arturo Torres Gomez" (presumed father)! Well like any adoptee, I first searched for my bio mom, and 1 yr ago today I located her here in Anaheim, CA. She lives with her sister "Rosie" and her husband "Albert". Rosie and Albert have 3 children together.. Sandra, Bert, and Linda. Here is where it gets twisted...Paula and Albert have 3 children together also!...Allen, Judy, and Ronald. I was born between Judy and Ronnie. No one even knew about me untill I started searching and calling! So far Ronnie and Bert know about me because I have spoken to them on the phone and Ronnie I have enjoyed the company of him comming over to meet me! Bert is a Hollywood director and I have been in contact with him by phone and email! Linda was the first person I contacted and she has made it a point to try to keep me a 43 yr. old secret because of Paula's wishes. Judy has M.S. and Allen has passed on in 1997 from a trucking accident. Sandra, lives up in Northern California and doesn't really keep in touch with the family from what Ronnie tells me. The family has had nothing but lies and secrets told to them..one thing is that all 6 kids were lied to and thought that Rosie was their mom and Aunt Paula was just that an Aunt. Unitll they got older in their teens and found out the horrible truth! Even back in Durango, MX till this day they think this! No they are not Mormon. Catholic! Then Linda and Allen grew up thinking they were twins! Because both sisters had them same yr! So they told them they were twins! Untill of course they were old enough to figure it out!
When I spoke to Bert he asked my what was the name of my father on my birth certificate and told him. He shocked me when he told me that 'Jesus Gonzalez" was also "Allens" bio father and not his father "Albert". Right before Allens accident he got a copy of his birth certificate and it stated that indeed his father was ....Mine!!! My only biological "full fledge brother" and I will never get to know him or anything! I called Ronnie with the news and he wouldn't believe it because he swears that his Dad is Allens dad. I was so happy to find another "piece" about me that I didn,t think of how devastated Ronnie would be. And now I feel a little distant from him because of that. Well staff at "The Locator" and Mr. Dunn I am not getting anywhere with my Bio Mom because she does not want to meet me and she is like an hour away from me!! I would love to seek my and Allens bio father "Jesus" who at the time of my birth was 24 yrs old. Bert told me that Allen was on his way to search for Jesus and then he was killed on the 101. I need to do this for him first then me!! I want him to be able to cross over to the other side if he left this unfinished business behind!! I love my only brother that I now think about every day. I need your help please!! I mean how in the world will I ever find our father!! If it's not too much I would like to find my "Presumed Father" as well! Since my mother doesn't want her 44 yr. old secret to come out. I don't need the emotional pain that she has instilled in me after all my life I was told that she loved me enough to give me up! It doesnt make any sense at all!! On my case I was named "Baby Girl Gonzalez" ....my real birth name!! I think that this is quite a story and I am sure there are more skeletons in Paulas closet but I will not quit untill I find my heart in some one elses......my father! I would love to be considered for the "Angle Case" your cast seeks! You are my only answer to my search! I have done just about all I can do.....Will you help me?
Thank You for Listening! and God Bless You all for All You Do!!
Marta Anderson aka: Baby Girl Gonzalez