I didn’t want anyone to go to Ryan’s house because I was just in so much shock that I could not even think straight. I also did not want this to get around school. No one needed to know and I hate drama more than anything. I was scared what could potentially happen. I was so uncomfortable and did not know what to do in a situation like this. If anything, I was so happy that I found out what kind of person he was early on rather than being in love with him in the future and not getting out of the relationship.
The next day at school I did not want anyone to know what happened to me. I was going to keep it to myself and I figured Ryan would do the same because why would he want people to know he beat me? Ryan and I have first hour class together so I was scared he would be in there. I felt so sick I did not even want to go to school. Right when I walked in to class, everyone (including Ryan) was looking at me with a disgusted look on their faces. It was like everyone already knew. I could only guess what Ryan told them. This was so uncomfortable for me and I just wanted to puke because I felt so disgusted.
After that class, someone came up to me and told me that Ryan had to quit lacrosse, could not drive, could not go to a university, got his cell phone taken away and was grounded all because I made nothing into something. All the people who I thought were my friends de-friended me because they thought I ruined his life on purpose. I never felt so betrayed and so hurt. I felt like I had the whole school against me and I couldn’t help to thank god every second that this was the end of my senior year and I could not wait to get out of this place. I could not even wear tank-tops or shorts to school because my bruises were so noticeable. I just wanted to go home because I knew my family would be there for me through this. Them and my two best friends Missy and Breanne were the only people who stuck by my side. They’re the only two friends I still have from high school because they stayed true to me. I cannot thank God enough for them. They helped me get through everything. When I felt so low they would be the people who would lift me up and make me feel like everything was going to be alright and something good would happen from it. I never want anyone to feel the way I felt. It was the lowest point of my life.
Todd told me he got in contact with Ryan’s parents and we were going to have a meeting at their house about what happened. I could not wait to sit Ryan down and tell him how I felt. Once I got into their house something just came over me and I could not speak or get anything out. I felt so scared. Ryan’s parents were yelling at me and defending him. I was appalled that people actually thought what happened was OK and Ryan’s mom actually wanted us to reenact what happened. I was so traumatized and so upset about what was happening. They made me believe I was over dramatizing this whole thing along with the rest of my school .
Luckily, that day one of Ryan’s best friends saw what happened. He told me he would back me up on anything because he saw what happened. I needed him to come over and tell my family what he saw and him to reassure me that I was not making something out of nothing.
In the end, this experience has made me so much stronger. I do not want anyone to go through what I did so always follow your intuition. I am so blessed to have such an amazing family. Without them, I could not get through this. I hope no one experiences what I did and I am happy to give advice to anyone who needs it.
Senior pictures are mandatory before you graduate. It is something to look back on in the future and announcements are usually sent out with your picture on them. I never really knew how expensive they were until I looked online. I also do not want to have my parents worry about paying for them because they cost so much money and I know we cannot afford that!
Ryan is a very manipulative person… I did not want to listen to what people said about him because he made me believe he cared about me and was a good kid. He made me feel special and I felt comfortable very fast and liked the feeling he gave me. He also was the most attractive and athletic kid I have dated and was well known around my school. He also is raised from a very well off family and drives a BMW.
When Ryan asked me out I felt so special and so happy that he was finally all mine. When all of my other boyfriends have asked me out, I wasn’t as excited as Ryan made me. On the other hand, for some reason, something did not feel right. My family was not that excited for me and I know Rex did not like Ryan to start off with. Todd also gave him a really hard time when he was around and it made me angry. My mom would keep repeating to me how I should be careful that he doesn’t break my heart and I was just so caught up in Ryan that I ignored everything everyone said. Even though I was so happy, I could not help being stressed about how no one in my family really cared for him and how all of my close friends did not like how I was getting myself involved with him.
When my Aunt Debbie showed up to take my pictures I was so excited!! She has always been amazing at taking pictures and I felt comfortable around her rather than some random photographer. I was so excited to see her! The pictures turned out so good and she did better than I imagined. I was so satisfied with the end result. She is such a blessing to me and a wonderful lady.
When my mom kept on questioning me what was wrong, I did not want to answer. I didn’t even want to talk. Earlier in the episode, when my Aunt Debbie asked what the bruises were on my arm I was hiding something. Ryan gave me them. I thought it was all a joke at first and when he would hit me he was just messing around because he would laugh sometimes but others there would be no smile on his face. I did not know if this kind of stuff was normal because he had times when he would treat me so well. I did not understand. All I know is something did not feel right but I didn’t know if I was over-dramatizing the situation. No boy has ever hit me like that. I did not want to believe Ryan was abusive and I wanted to change him. I didn’t want my family to confront him because I was just in shock of what happened earlier and I could not keep my head on straight. Looking back, I would have called the cops and put him in jail. It is NEVER acceptable to hit a girl in any situation. Now that I know I was not exaggerating the whole thing, I would have most definitely done something about it. I am so glad I had my family there for me and I am so blessed to have people that care about me that much in my life. I was so happy I did not have to go through that alone.
When I like a guy I get attached way too easily. So when I told my parents that I liked a new guy. I thought everyone would be happy for me, but instead they were all saying bad things about him. I liked him because he was in my first hour class and he was really funny… and I also thought he looked good. I didn’t believe what any of my siblings said about them even though I knew I was lying to myself. I still wanted things to work with him because I feel like I can change people for the better. Even though now I realize that is impossible.
When we had our first date I was so excited. I haven’t been out with anybody since Jonny and I broke up and it felt good to have that feeling back. When he came to my house with flowers I felt so special because no one bought me flowers before. I thought Todd was being so rude and I couldn’t believe the way he was treating him. I just wanted Todd to be happy for me because I really liked this kid. Once the date was over I had even stronger feelings and I couldn’t wait to see him again. I thought he was so cute and he made me feel so good about myself. I didn’t want to listen to all the negative comments about him, even though I knew my intuition did not feel right.
Dylan and I have been in numerous fights due to his blood pressure issues. If my mom is not around and Dyl eats something that is unhealthy, I tell him it’s not a good idea because of his blood pressure. He gets so mad at me and tells me I am not his mother when all I want to do is help him.
When my mom brought up the raw food idea, I was actually kind of excited to start a new diet and test it out. When I saw what we were cooking, I definitely changed my mind. I am the type of person who enjoys all my food extra hot and I cannot stand cold food. I even heat my freshly brewed coffee up 30 more seconds because it is still not hot enough for me. So the fact that we were having cold spaghetti disgusted me and I did not know how I was going to eat it. I am so glad my mom stopped that diet because I definitely was not a fan.
My mom was trying to get people involved in a fundraiser for the hypnotist. It was really hard to sell it to people straight-up but once the night came the whole audience was full of people. I thought it was a hysterical performance and I want to do it again! It was an amazing experience.
First off, I should have never complained about making my own meal because when my mom was a single mom we barely had any money to pay for dinner. Getting together as a family and making a nice big dinner should never be a negative thing because I pray in the future when I have a family it will be the same. However, I believe that when I am 18 and graduated from high school, my parents should be more lenient towards me and the rules. I know freshmen who are allowed to do more then we are! I probably should have been smart and kept my mouth shut because none of this would have happened and I hate more then anything when the parents get upset.
When Todd dumped this “fend for yourself” rule on us, it made me so upset because that’s my money and working for him was the last thing I wanted to be doing at that time! I thought buying my own toilet paper and food was ridiculous! The fact that I wasn’t even allowed to sleep in my own bed made me furious and I even had to pay to sleep outside with a tent.
Luckily, we had fun with it and it turned out to be a good night. Rex even let me sneak food out and I learned how to be a tent-building expert. In the end, I really appreciated this experience because it made me a lot more gracious about everything I had and I learned how much a penny was really worth. It also showed me what reality was like and how hard it really would be to live on my own. I guess sticking to the parent’s rules a little longer will not be too painful. 😉
Cody’s coming!!! Yay!! Cody and I left off on a bad note here in Arizona but I really hope things have changed. Since we’re both more mature now, I think Cody and I will be able to see eye to eye. When Cody lived out here a few years ago, we were newly blended and it caused some friction in the family because of how Cody was raised by his mom and how it was a stricter household here with us. The boys were constantly bullied by him and he did not like my mom or us girls. I think as we have gotten older, we realize how immature it was to fight like we did so now I’m hoping for a fresh start!
Cody’s pierced nips and tats are not the prettiest sight but he seems to like them and that’s all that matters! I remember years ago when Cody tried piercing them when he lived out here with a safety pin so at least this time he got professional service! I am also soo excited about having pulled pork sandwiches because it is my favorite meal. Cody talks about going to the shooting range and even though my mom is apprehensive, I really want to go! I have never shot anything besides an airsoft gun so I really think it would be a fun family experience!
Even though Todd has regrets, I believe everything happens for a reason and they have a strong relationship now. I am really glad Cody forgives Todd because Todd is still hurt about it. I really think Cody has changed and I am so happy we all got along so well. 🙂
When the ambulance pulled up to the house was the moment I that Rex’s asthma attack became real to me. He has had so many of them so I just thought that he was going to recover just as easy. Something just didn’t feel right and I was scared that my brother might die because I know that has happened before. I don’t care about the medical bill because Rex is alive.
Heather, Whit, Em and I decided to go have girl’s night. I wasn’t too excited because I was still sad about losing Jonny and I didn’t feel like going” boy chasing”. Heather, Whitney and Em thought Daniel, our server, was hot and Heather gave his manager her number to give to him and wanted to talk to him.
When she was getting a drink, some girls who were clearly older then us started saying stuff. And that’s when the whole night went downhill. Having cameras following you around at a young age attracts attention to places because people are not used to seeing it. It was obvious that the girl wanted to be on TV and the only way she was going to get on there was by starting something. I admit my emotions got out of hand and my adrenaline was up so high, I could barely control myself. I think fighting is the most trashy thing a girl can do and I am not like that at all but when someone messes with my family nothing will stop me.
To top the night off, my jeep would not start and we got caught being late for curfew. I learned my lesson you can’t lie to your parents and you have to communicate to receive their trust.
For the past 2 years I have been saving half of my paychecks and putting it into a savings account. Also, anytime I got birthday money or anything like that I would put it in savings. After having my license for a year I decided to start looking for a car. It was getting hard to constantly get rides back and forth to work. I looked on the internet and found my jeep. I knew right away this was what I wanted and honestly, I had my mind made up before I even saw it. I should have had my parents look at it first but I was worried that it might get sold.
This car is not very dependable and I wish I would have cared more about what was under the hood than how it appeared on the outside but I was just really excited to have something of my own.
Johnny and I broke up because we just weren’t each other’s type. At first it was hard but I am totally fine now. I think it’s always awkward to see your ex-boyfriend with another girlfriend but after a while I got used to it.
I was totally fine about moving to Desert Hills. Now that I am graduating it doesn’t really matter. Plus, now that I have a car I can get wherever I need to go.
When Rex started coughing and wasn’t feeling better after his treatment I was so glad that my mom called the ambulance. I hate to see any of my siblings suffer and I was really worried for Rex because he never complains and for him to look so helpless was pretty scary.
I am extremely happy that Todd has been getting more work! We are progressing each day and getting wiser with our money and I think that is what it is all about! Aunt Cathy is coming in town and I am excited because I have not seen her in awhile! My aunt has been through so much in her life and I can honestly say she is the strongest person I know and such a great women. Even though she is staying for a short period of time I am happy I even get to see her! I also know my mom has some money to give her because sometime over the last couple months my aunt loaned us some money so I was happy to hear we had enough money to pay her back with.
When Heather and I were getting ready to go to Jonny’s house to meet up with our friends for a pool party I wanted to wear Heather’s necklace. I never wear jewelry and Jonny always tells me how I am not very girly so I wanted to impress him by looking nice. When Heather tells me it’s too expensive so she doesn’t want it lost or destroyed I totally understand…we are going to a pool party anyway so I don’t know why wearing a necklace would be smart.
Since Heather and I are dating best friends it is good that we have had to hang out with each other more but sometimes we need our space so it is both good and bad. When I think about it, I wouldn’t want Cody to be dating anyone else because I do not like hanging out with girls so if it were another I don’t think I would like that. I don’t even want to talk about my mom having another baby that’s just out of the question!!
I thought the goo idea was a smart one for Danielle because she actually sold it fast and brought back nearly 100 bucks! If we were to that every day that would be a start to a good business!
After a long day I was so excited to sit down and have a nice meal with our family. Then all in the matter of seconds Todd drops a bomb on us!!! He tells us he has a job opportunity in Missouri that pays well but he will be gone for 6 months if he accepts it. We all start freaking out and do not want him to move at all. It is my senior year coming up and he not being there means he will basically never live with me again if I move out once I graduate! I also want him there because my mom would be so stressed if he was gone and I don’t think she needs that with her disease. Also where would Heather and Levi go?!
Wiffle ball was so fun and great exercise! If we could do it every day I totally would!
While Todd just got done telling us he might move Heather and I are up in the room and I can’t help to think what that room might be to me in a couple weeks. That is the last thing I want! If Todd were to move then Heather and Levi probably would too and that would break our family up. My life seemed so in place, and after thinking about that, it made me not want Todd to move at all…money or not I believe family always comes first.
When I wake up to the necklace Heather gives me I could not believe it! She just told me how expensive it was and here it is for me! That was so nice of her and I will keep it forever.
College is probably the number one thing in my life that I stress about. I am a senior this year and college is right around the corner so I have no clue on where to apply and what to do once I graduate. Heather and I decided that we should talk about college rather then put it off even longer. Scholarships do not come easy and money is tight right now. College is very expensive and working a couple jobs a week is not going to help me. Ever since I was a kid, I have wanted to go to ASU because that is where my parents went. ASU is also Heather’s pick so we decided to talk to the parents to tell them we would like to tour the campus. They thought it was a good idea so we scheduled a tour. During the tour we got to view the dorms, classrooms, the gym, and much more!! Being there made me realize how much I liked it but I knew it would be impossible to afford! Once we talked to the financial planner, he had a deal for us that made it realistic for us so we will see what happens!
Whitney has always been the best singer in our family! She never lets us look at her when she sings because she gets really nervous so we never really get to hear her so it is a privilege when we do. When she tried out for Anthem Idol I was so happy she was actually putting forth some effort into her talent! Even though she did not win or thought she did well, she still made top eight from various contestants and I thought she did a great job.
I think the fact that Whit brought up the idea to call Todd dad was something I have always have wanted to do! Todd made me the person I am today and is the real father figure in my life. He made me grow so much as a person and without him, I would be lost. The only negative thing is I am seventeen and I am moving out in a year so calling him dad this late would be something difficult to get used to. When we told my brothers and they were not too happy about it, it made me angry because Todd has done everything for us and they were not even being appreciative so I wanted to slap the s**t out of them!
I swear on my life to this day it was not a hickey!! I was having a great basketball game and the last thing I wanted is for the boys to team up on me and tell me I had a hickey. The only way I knew how to overthrow the situation was to tell my mother because I knew she would shut them up. So guess what happened after I told her? I never heard about that “hickey” again. 🙂
We have not been out to eat in so long! When my parents told us we were going to Cici’s I was thrilled because I have not been there since I lived in Georgia 9 years ago. It had some good pizza and it was good family time.
When it was Father’s Day and we gave Todd our gift I got really emotional. I told him just how much he meant to me and so it got me choked up. I love what Whit said too!
Lake Pleasant is a free way to have fun! I love it!